Darn it! My life is always either too busy or too boring. It's the way I work, I'm sure. I do stuff hard and fast until it's all done, and then there's just... nothing else to do. I think that, in past years, while I focused on thoughts and statistics about life, I've missed out on lots of the good parts of life. I KNOW I'm usually missing out on SOMETHING... especially at times when everyone else can easily whip out a good conversation, and I can never even THINK of stuff that's happened to me that relates to them. I seriously lack important social ability.
I guess I'm just on a low mood. Not sad, just low. A thoughtful stage. Just a time when nothing MUST be done quickly, and I don't really have the ENERGY to keep doing stuff. I've not been sleeping much (3-4 hours/day), but still, I've liked it. My body even adapted to it... I was waking up fresh the last few days after that much sleep. I've been learning new stuff, I haven't been bored at all... I don't know... I feel useful. Not like a parasite, as I usually did. I haven't had much social contact, though. I spend more time with my ever-faithful PC than with all the people I meet daily. No kidding.
(For those who don't care about computer stuff, just pretend this paragraph doesn't exist.) Those who don't know, I've been doing this PHP/MySQL web application for my brother. Along with MM (just so he doesn't say I don't give him credit :P ). PHP 5.something, MySQL 4.1.3, I think. Running on an Apache 2.X server. And I didn't even know HTML before I started. That was, maybe, between 3 & 4 weeks ago. Since then, I've already learned HTML, Javascript, PHP, CSS, & some special MySQL syntax & functions on this project. I've focused on server-side stuff (PHP, MySQL, some HTML & Javascript), MM's focusing on client-side stuff (HTML, CSS, Javascript). It's been a very educational experience for both. And I hope it will be worth it, money-like.
So, I think I'm balancing between joy and depression right now. I think my body's going for the first choice, though
. Good. Very good.
. Good. Very good.Despite that, other stuff HAS been happening. I go to work on Tuesdays, Thursdays & Fridays... I've been going for 4 weeks now... I'm always there at 8AM (or close). There's nothing much to say about it... except all the people are really nice, the workplace is very neat and comfortable, & there's always free coffee and cookies in the kitchen. AND I'm getting paid. What a deal.
Well, I got the DDR pads, but I haven't really gotten to using them yet. Bidkar's got the PS/PC adapter, so I couldn't play if I wanted to. I'm planning on asking my aunt to put some velcro around it so I can attach it somewhere... to make it more stable. For now, one of the pads is just gathering some dust 3 feet away from me.
Oh yeah... I bought a digital camera from Richard! Sony Cybershot 3.2 MPx. I didn't really pay for it... I got the deal for Q800, missed the day of the deal and had to pay Q900 the other day, but most of it (Q800) came from a check my mom made... and I chipped in the rest. It's kind of my gift to my sister. Kind of. Though she doesn't know. The camera's really my sister's now. She'll use it more than I could. She took some REALLY NEAT pictures of Volcán de Pacaya a few weeks ago... WHILE lava was erupting. I mean, she was just beside the flowing and gushing lava, just meters away. She got close to it and took pictures with only the red light from it. I'll post one if I can. And Richard's still getting lots of stuff (laptop, camera, iPod, PS2, clothes) from this Grajeda guy (really fat guy from school) at the lowest prices I've ever seen. For example: 20GB iPod for Q400 (Q300 initially). How's that??
Well, I had the test I did terrible on back on Thursday night. I saw a 66 grade on the front page and I was so happy I just had to run with my arms raised. I was actually the second-best in class, next to Bidkar's 100.
And, let's see, what else? Oh yeah. About the "going-to-USA-to-become-a-resident plan", the interview we had for July 29th got postponed for October 3rd, just because my aunt from PA didn't mail her paperwork in time. I want to move, desperately. It's not that I don't like my house... but I believe 21 years living in only place is a lot more than enough. Maybe I'll even change living quarters during these last months. I really yearn for an independent life. I have since I was 18.
Well, about the PHP page again... my brother invited lots of family to present his project tomorrow... this company he's creating. And the PHP application I'm making IS what the company's about. Even now, the chairs, the projector and the presentation are all ready in the ex-computer room. (They say there's gonna be good food tomorrow)
)Well, not much left to say. Oh yeah, I'm having this dream where I'm having an affair with a really hot woman I don't know. I'm suddenly sitting at a table, at a party, and she suddenly appears at the table, takes my hand, and walks me down to the back room. The strange thing is... I can never remember the good part. Kinda frustrating. At the end of the dream there are some straw huts, I'm in a savanna, and I'm escaping from something in a long motorcycle and end up in a very futuristic-looking city. The kind of dream I don't like to wake up from.
Well, and I did well on my Compilers test friday night. And I'm still expecting payment from MSDN courses AND from PHP page AND from work. Seems my numbers are going up.
And now my body's asking me to go to sleep. And so I obey. I surrender to the night.
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