Mistrust

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the feeling of wanting to be better than the other

of outcompeting the other

of defeating the other

of surpassing the other

of conquering the other

comes from mistrust.

one does not trust the other

to make good decisions

and if he holds more power

than i

then more incorrectness spreads across the world

and against that i must fight.

and it comes from fear

that the other will abuse his power

to subjugate and abuse me

also a mistrust

that power will be abused.

and this mistrust

of the other

comes when we believe the other's

true intents and methods

are lesser and undesirable.

corrupted or undeveloped

and must hence be subjugated.

in short, mutual parties

mistrust one another

because each believes the other

to be lesser or undesired

rejected.

mistrust occurs when we reject one another

and rejection happens when the unit

has built a wall between him and others.

when he believes the other to be separate

of another kind

when we believe that their intentions

are different from ours

and they may very well be

because each has grown behind their own walls.

feeling such rejections

against all those around

it can be hard to remember

that the core intent of humans

is one and the same

the one we were born with

the one we forget

under layers and decades of training:

to see, to seek, to desire, to chase.

to feel, to connect, to share, to grow.

enmity and mistrust are grown

not core

perhaps we can dig in and find those weaves

of default mistrust and consider

whether they still truly serve.