our divine and our animal

can I truly drop and flow myself
fully, no lifesaver, no backup rope?
will I? is what I wonder

I know I desire to share with her
can I share abso-fucking-lutely
all?
my yeses, my nos, my smiles, my shouts
my walls, their tearing down, my heart in true mode?
knowing distraction when it comes with list-making,
problem-solving,
logical righteousness,
comfort of money
knowing and feeling us as one organism
aching to find the truth of itself?

I say I desire a connection. what kind?
one I depend on, one that I crave
because I do not feel worthy myself?
please have me discern this
if this is the case

I wish to be true
I wish to not hurt her
that mixes in with wanting to please her
and that projects an image of myself I think will please her
not the same thing

stay true stay me stay being
open
soft
unleash my truth
whatever it takes
this connection is not measured in failure or success
of whether we like it or not
let us share from center
only then can we

play both our divine and our animal
hoping this includes the heart
our heart