Thinking on the bus

thinking thinking thinking oh my god what am I thinking "my god??" my god, what did I just say? Just yesterday I was claiming to not subscribe to the belief of a god, but oh well, maybe an idea and just a common generic interjection.

I am listening to music from my iPhone on my way from the Pittsburgh airport to the Oakland stop, typing on my laptop while I do so, and bogging my head back and forth to the rhythm of a music that only I can listen to here in this bus.

And I wonder what other people think of me. I focus too much on that, I think. "What is everyone else thinking? Is what I am doing funny/interesting/intriguing/strange/curious/admirable enough for everyone here? Am I making an impression?" I don't know if I succeed, but I sure as well think about it, and I don't think it should be that way.

I should just focus on what I am doing. I mean, I do want to write about something, but that's what's on my mind. Other things on my mind: Leave of Absence, turning the form in to Diane, I imagine the sad expression on her face when I give her the form, I imagine her telling me whether I am allowed to keep this laptop or whether I should give it back to the department. I still have to tell other people about my decision. Who is left? Min knows... hmmm, people in Pittsburgh...

Not many people really. I think Jose still doesn't know... or does he? Oh yes he does - I told him on our trip to NYC, I think. Ashik and Julian know... Laura knows, Min knows... Leila and Ina should still be told. TK and chinese Julian. Lucia.

And then the jolly rest of the family and friends from whom I've avoided questions about my program recently. Marcos, Manfredo, Elisa, Pedro, Marcelo. The rest of the UVG CS crowd, Lucia, Oscar Melchor. Oh, girls here in PA. Amanda, Lexie. Awww, Lexie. I still want to be around for her soccer match in Slippery Rock, though.

That's it for notifications, I guess. What is left? Oh yes. What will I do? :) That's where the interesting part begins, I think. List of possibilities... a little more concrete and actually motivating, as opposed to fucking the dinosaur in front of the Carnegie Museum of Science and crashing into the sun. Here goes:

• Learn and practice Python - become good at it. Enough to work at Google, make cool applications on it.
• Learn to DJ on Ableton with the trial version I have on my computer. It will just take time, but I'm willing to give it time if the results become awesome music :D.
• Learn to program on Android. Julian may help me a bit there, and I'll be glad to help him with the Java part. Win-win :).
• Further practice the piano, learn a few more pieces. I have Filipe's electrical piano in my room to practice with at any time I want, and I can go to the CFA (College of Fine Arts) if I want real pianos to practice with. Even if they are out of tune.
• Learn another (spoken) language, and practice german. I know german well enough so that lessons on the internet and reading the dictionary provide only marginal benefit, I believe, so I think improving my german is better done by practicing with people who already have a fair-to-good level of it and are willing to practice having conversations with me. Ma three Pitt girls are on my mind (Sonja, Kimberly, Cora :). And which other language? Hmmm... French. And italian coming right behind it.
• Learn to dance. I'm interested in several styles. Latin dance, Tango, Ballroom dancing would all be fine. Contemporary dance strikes a special piece in me - the part that wants to move my body in all directions, flail my extremities, and exploit the potential of my body's movements. I know I can move much more and in more manners, and I know I want to. Hence contemporary dance :).
• Parkour, related to my previous point on wanting freedom of movement. Patrick Terry is the guy I'd like to contact about it (well, he contacted me). And then there's breakdancing as well... similar... a little.
• Jump off one of the Pittsburgh bridges? One that has a river underneath, of course. :) (I'm looking at the bridges right now, so I thought of it).
• Learn to farm? I've been intrigued by that, and now I actually know a farmer that I can contact to know more about this. Food production... so essential to me - to every person who eats, but something that so few people know about. I want to know about it. And learn how to do it.
• Finding a cute, smart, wise girl to be with, to share activities and thoughts with, and to fuck :)

I'm on Forbes and Bouquet now, so I'm going to close the lid on my computer and stash it into my backpack. bye!