Self Analysis

Thought processes still not back to normal...

I am sleepy, I am at the airport, waiting to board AA flight 761, with a laptop with no internet access on my lap, and I am still thinking that my thought processes are not yet back to normal.

And that sucks!! If my thought processes had improved, I probably would not disagree with the change, but as it is, many things I do are so much harder to do! I need to think a bit more about what I'm doing, I need to go through small steps, while before I could just zip through my day doing everything automatically, while immersed in my own mental world.

Sometimes it seems to me I am too relaxed, and as such, I am missing the usual edge of healthy tension I usually had that enabled me to do everything the way I did before. Sometimes it seems that my movements, thoughts, and actions are simply hindered, not as synchronized, and as such, they cannot progress as smoothly as they once did. Just a few minutes ago, I came up with the hypothesis that the part of my brain that processes things automatically, without thinking (the cerebellum?) is sleepy, non-functional, or under-functional right now. Things that I before did without thinking now I require thought process to do, and not as well as before. It's as if my cache had been erased, and it's either being re-populated again, or maybe (hopefully) it's just waiting to wake up. I hope that's what it is.

I'll give it a week for my body to recover, release toxins, and become healthy again. For now, I still feel a slight tingling sensation on my face, especially on my forehead, a little on my arms, and a whole sense of having to rethink everything over and over again. Not as much as when completely high, but still, much more than I usually do. Please recover body - I'm sorry I did this to you.