Glad

And the feeling of inside
beats with the drums of the outside
shakes and rides the waves around
that splash me
seduce me
uplift me
refuse me
coarse through me
when I let them in
when I forget
shed
the times when flow was scary and it hurt
when within me
it is of me
it is me
it plays a song in my heart
to which I dance
glad
self
glad

Objective

Objective is constriction of flow onto a single direction. Like guiding all flow onto a single pipe. Like pressing thumb against end of hose boosts pressure. It projects all energies unto the single dimension that achieves it. Sole focus on an objective disregards, projects other dimensions.

Constrictions, guidance, projection are part of the flow, dance. Oft-repeated constriction congeals such pattern, such that expected feeling is constriction. Lack of constriction can lead one to feel lost, to seek purpose. "What to do? What to do?" What to constrict? What to focus on?"

Whom are we asking? Who chooses? Who dances?

Tis dance. Allowed flow evokes delightful friction as Time flower gently unfolds. Notice. Feel.

Attention

"Pay attention".

Attention delights to have a target.

Mine, today, wanders.

Seeks a target.

Some of it wants to wander. To soften from a long trip.
Part of me aims to harness it. When I attempt it, it feels tired. So I release it.

Notice - where does attention gravitate to?

• Facebook. Direct conversations. "Completing" the unread feeds. Like itches that get ever stronger. Conversations are nice.
• Email. Pending tasks. Pending responses.
• If all itches are scratched, it finds new itches. How's the photo feed? How's the bank account? How's the webcomic?
• Sometimes it finds nothing. Then it sometimes becomes anxious. "What? What? What to do? What?" Looking to pounce on some purpose, some engagement. SOME thing.

Then, recall.

It's now.

Nowow.

notice

no where to put it? place attention

here

offering

smile

belly flow

love

balance helps remember

all directions are open to us

and we are free to choose

always

awareness spots states, patterns, associations in self

helps find those where flow aches or rushes

allows to focus there, feel why, feel flow ache or rush

often see inter-coagulated concepts

where no light of awareness shed

due to unexamined behavior

to the discomfort of fear

to the thick veil of shame

like "she's looking at you"

and "she wants to have sex with you"

or "i feel joyful when I am with you"

and "you are the source of my happiness"

light of awareness finds these ties

images them untied, and they are

they flap like wings exercised for the first time

their creaky hinges release rusty flow held for long

it sometimes bubbles up and turns to laughter

a freeing dissolution

intention is a direction to move in

a flow of our choosing for our next step in our dance

"No effort is ever wasted", some say

and what could waste be,

if we flow like waves

in this ocean of Life, Consciousness?

"well, I want to be there", some say.

"so I'll move there and I'll be content".

or "I'm not there yet"

"are we there yet?"

laughter comes

we are never there

we are always here

we are never then

we are always now

intention pushes from here

expectation pulls from there

they differ

here is rich, perceived, felt

fluid, pervasive, colorful

now, always

there is single, static, abstract,

unmoving, distant

then, later

if we pull towards expectation

expectation pulls us too

and we feel unfree

A wall on Matala Beach says

"TODAY IS LIFE"

"TOMORROW NEVER COMES"

patterns replicate

ripples grow

blades of grass, leaves, re-produce

language, culture is recited through generations

fear, love, looks

swept from parent to child

awareness helps recognize patterns

intention allows their change

the dancer makes the dance

and makes new

if willed

it may re-plicate, re-create

it may fold anew, create

and in the void of new

may find bliss of freedom

alchemistry touches beauty

helps awareness

helps feel simplicity

restrictions, problems are self-made

rejections of combinations

"if this, then that"

like all patterns.

life flows

in pure flow all combinations may build

and dissolve

breath helps soften

loosen

flow

yoga-like

inhale brings feeling of what is, highlights tightness, pressure

exhale allows what is, accepts, relieves

forest bathing, magic

during allowance of open meander

heart held gratitude, search, want of a guide

found guide of soft, gentle, friend without expectations

loosened some scar within

shed light within

nudged look within

and where hows, whys, purpose were sought

flow, dance, magic are found

still

now

ever

thank you

cry laughter yes

something dissolves within

love

green grass and cookies