I am hurting again. Little after I offered peace to you, and I began seeing you again as someone I could again smile at, hurt started coming again, and it's been at it ever since. But my intentions are still friendly. I'm telling you because if I hide it, the hate might start coming again. I'm not trying to tell you to change in any way, reproaching you, trying to make you feel guilty, or anything like that. I just want you to know it, and hopefully it will help me get back on track. If I don't tell you, my innards may start thinking "look at her smiling, laughing, so cheerful, while I feel I'm dying inside. What does she know... she knows nothing... she feels no sympathy for my hurt... I hate her". That's kinda how it could go, and I'm trying to avoid this. Just know it.
Also, I'd like you to read the other scripts I wrote towards you during these last few months. I don't think you'll know how I felt for you unless you read them. I know they're disturbing, so I will probably tell you this at a lower-stress moment. I know you have your own problems too, but I have to ask. No resentment if you refuse.
Antonio
P.S: Anyway, it's not the first time it's happened: http://www.cafepress.com/+leila_broke_my_heart_and_i_hate_her_throw_pillow
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