Want versus Mood

I want to write a nice blog entry, but I'm not in a writing mood. My desire of expression is being superseded by a temporary lack of focus, which is perhaps caused by a desire of wanting do something else - by the feeling that there are activities of higher priority to attend to.

But by expressing and clarifying these thoughts, I now understand the conflict: last night I wrote a checklist of important things to do, and I marked several of these with an "H", representing the word "Hoy", which for you spanish-ignorants (no offense meant, it's just a precise term), means "Today", which itself meant "Must be finished today".

However, the next morning (last morning), I woke up and realized that I did not have the keys to my car, and hence could not drive out and do some of the tasks that I had meant to do, such as deposit money at the bank or mail my CMU acceptance forms. I felt impotent (not sexually), and even though I achieved significant progress on many other important tasks, the feeling that I still had important tasks to finish by the end of the day still lingered. And it still does. Which is probably why even now I have this nagging feeling that I should be doing something else. But at least now I understand the feeling and am able to mentally circumvent it. Besides, just writing about it got me a little bit more in the writing mood and I'm already at the end of my third paragraph and counting.

Yep, confirmed, just looking at that "H" on the first task on my checklist just made me stress out a little bit. My brain has a pretty good alarm system going on inside. I don't think I know how to precisely configure all the settings, though.

I brought a box of crayons from Toronto!!! I think I blogged about these crayons on my previous blog entry. It's the same box, and now I wonder what to draw with them. Crayons can be fun.

So last weekend I visited Niagara Falls! Yay! I finally witnessed those HUGE amounts of water continuously falling down that HUGE cliff, and took pictures too! Pics here: CLICK HERE FOR PICS TO NIAGARA FALLS AND TORONTO. It was quite satisfactory to finally witness that famous landmark (or is it a watermark?)

Anyway, my brother wants to go to sleep and it is already pretty "late". Gotta go to sleep. Bye!