I trust, however, that Time will lessen the importance of my hidden facts, and eventually make these hidden facts of mine publishable. Not that I'm planning in putting them in a book, but I would like to return to a transparent state of balance...................... ........ ..... but I won't just yet.
I'm spending these days one by one, not really planning each one of them, but just figuring out what to do with each one as they come by. As I blogged on recent entries, I've spent most of these past few weekends engaged in quite interesting activities, each of which I could easily identify with at most three words (some of these namings are actually the titles of the photo albums that I uploaded to my picasaweb.google account). At-most-three-word namings... they would be:
- CMU Open House
- RW Disney World
- Toronto Trip
- Aggie Camp
- Seaworld
- THIS weekend! :D (Does a smiley count as a word?)
The weekend that started 136 minutes ago for me is the last weekend I will spend here in Austin, TX this spring 2009. My feelings about it are kinda mixed up. I like Austin very much, and feel like I'm leaving one gem of a city. I mean, the city has these great places: the Barton Creek Greenbelt, Barton Springs, Deep Eddy Pool, Ladybird Lake (aka Town Lake), lots of sport practitioners, lots of young people, lots of hippie-style people, a lot of friendliness all around, and just a general sense of well-being throughout the city. But then I think that, for someone who sounds so nostalgic about these things, I didn't really use them too much. In all my time here, I visited the Greenbelt about 5 times, visited Barton Springs less than 10 times, Deep Eddy Pool 3 times, averaged Town Lake visits to less than twice a month, only engaged in sports with a partner thrice, and met relatively few friends in the city (aside from coworkers). I don't think I really squeezed the juice out of Austin. So... I shouldn't really feel too nostalgic about it.
I did make some great friendships while I lived here, though. Did I! Yes, I did. People say first-time sex is always remembered. We'll see about that. What I learned is that, when sincere and mutual, sex allows a friendship to deepen and strengthen. But otherwise, sex can be not-so-good and cause some awkward moments. I experienced the heart-warming that occurs when your partner says "I love you", and you look at her eyes and see that she totally means it. I experienced disarming close-up smiles, arousing sensual touches, and soul-warming skin embraces. A total skin embrace is amazingly tender and warm... one of the best feelings was when our limbs rubbed against each other, endowing each other with inner warmth, expressing sentiments all by themselves - an amazing tactile form of expression. I loved you too.
Her kids gave me the second-most pleasant social experience of my stay here in Austin. I have talked and played with children before, of course, but never as closely as with them. I played "the male adult role" in her family, and the children took a liking to me that I remember with a most grateful smile. They are playful, intelligent, mindful, and childishly innocent, much more than I would expect an average US child to be. They trusted me, liked me, and missed me when I was gone, and likewise did I with them. I really do feel a twinge of guilt when I think that I'm leaving them for a long run... :(... I love you all - I hope you learn as much as you possibly can, I hope you continue being as intelligent, playful, mindful, and beautiful as you all are now, and I hope you grow up happy, successful, and aware of the joy and wonder that is this World. :) I also hope that you don't forget me, that I won't forget you, and if possible, I hope we can keep in touch.
And I've said before, I loved my job.... I really did like it very very much. Through it, I traveled to various cities across the USA, stayed in nice hotels, got free food during trips, obtained a lot of on-site deployment experience, learned Java, met talented engineers and managers, made great friendships, got flexible hours, and was in general very happy with what I did. Man, those days were really fun. :) I miss them sometimes.
And then there was Emily Rose. Met through electronic music, one of the friendliest, sincerest, and happiest people I know, I rapidly grew a strong crush on her when I realized she was almost perfectly equal to everything I wanted in a girl. Except that her boyfriend was not me. Both of them are great people, though, and are very happy together, so I really, truly, sincerely hope that they be completely happy with each other. Or in general, I wish for both of them to be very happy. They both showed me friendship, trust, and generosity in all situations, and for that I am very grateful to them. :) Thanks Emily and Andy.
And my roommate during all my time here in Austin, my brother Marcos... I really have much to thank him. He got me this great job, brought me to this great city, drove me all around before I got a car, helped me achieve all these great experiences, shared his apartment with me, tried to help me and advise me with the plans I sometimes had, regularly inquired about my mysterious where-abouts, and always tried not to invade my privacy. I am very, very, very, very, very grateful for everything he did for me. I don't express this very much, but I AM very grateful to you. Thank you Marcos.
And now here I am, in one of my last days in Austin, thinking of what to do. I bought a Patagonia MLC backpack for $70, I'm trying to obtain an iPod Touch 2nd Gen I could use as a WiFi phone while traveling, and though I think I should be tremendously excited about the Europe trip that's coming up very soon, I think my nostalgia for Austin balances my neurons out and keeps me in a meditative, calm state.
I did make some great friendships while I lived here, though. Did I! Yes, I did. People say first-time sex is always remembered. We'll see about that. What I learned is that, when sincere and mutual, sex allows a friendship to deepen and strengthen. But otherwise, sex can be not-so-good and cause some awkward moments. I experienced the heart-warming that occurs when your partner says "I love you", and you look at her eyes and see that she totally means it. I experienced disarming close-up smiles, arousing sensual touches, and soul-warming skin embraces. A total skin embrace is amazingly tender and warm... one of the best feelings was when our limbs rubbed against each other, endowing each other with inner warmth, expressing sentiments all by themselves - an amazing tactile form of expression. I loved you too.
Her kids gave me the second-most pleasant social experience of my stay here in Austin. I have talked and played with children before, of course, but never as closely as with them. I played "the male adult role" in her family, and the children took a liking to me that I remember with a most grateful smile. They are playful, intelligent, mindful, and childishly innocent, much more than I would expect an average US child to be. They trusted me, liked me, and missed me when I was gone, and likewise did I with them. I really do feel a twinge of guilt when I think that I'm leaving them for a long run... :(... I love you all - I hope you learn as much as you possibly can, I hope you continue being as intelligent, playful, mindful, and beautiful as you all are now, and I hope you grow up happy, successful, and aware of the joy and wonder that is this World. :) I also hope that you don't forget me, that I won't forget you, and if possible, I hope we can keep in touch.
And I've said before, I loved my job.... I really did like it very very much. Through it, I traveled to various cities across the USA, stayed in nice hotels, got free food during trips, obtained a lot of on-site deployment experience, learned Java, met talented engineers and managers, made great friendships, got flexible hours, and was in general very happy with what I did. Man, those days were really fun. :) I miss them sometimes.
And then there was Emily Rose. Met through electronic music, one of the friendliest, sincerest, and happiest people I know, I rapidly grew a strong crush on her when I realized she was almost perfectly equal to everything I wanted in a girl. Except that her boyfriend was not me. Both of them are great people, though, and are very happy together, so I really, truly, sincerely hope that they be completely happy with each other. Or in general, I wish for both of them to be very happy. They both showed me friendship, trust, and generosity in all situations, and for that I am very grateful to them. :) Thanks Emily and Andy.
And my roommate during all my time here in Austin, my brother Marcos... I really have much to thank him. He got me this great job, brought me to this great city, drove me all around before I got a car, helped me achieve all these great experiences, shared his apartment with me, tried to help me and advise me with the plans I sometimes had, regularly inquired about my mysterious where-abouts, and always tried not to invade my privacy. I am very, very, very, very, very grateful for everything he did for me. I don't express this very much, but I AM very grateful to you. Thank you Marcos.
And now here I am, in one of my last days in Austin, thinking of what to do. I bought a Patagonia MLC backpack for $70, I'm trying to obtain an iPod Touch 2nd Gen I could use as a WiFi phone while traveling, and though I think I should be tremendously excited about the Europe trip that's coming up very soon, I think my nostalgia for Austin balances my neurons out and keeps me in a meditative, calm state.
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