Low-energy orbit (Unfinished and retaken)

As a being allegedly conformed by many homogeneous particles, it is not easy for me to understand how can I seem to be such a complex and singular being, separate from the rest of the physical world as if by magic or by a powerful will (aren't they the same thing?)

But just as the moon's nature (internal composition and external interactions, some would say) keeps it at a periodically far distance from our planet, so do my own inner and outer forces
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(I was tired and sleepy when I was writing this, so this is where I left off. I'd like to continue the ideas I left unfinished at that time, just to avoid abandoning it).

so do my own inner and outer forces (a universally gigantic amount of them) push and pull CONSTANTLY to keep my body stable. And individual, and separate. I'm made of the same fundamental particles, just like the clothes around me, the chair under me, the laptop on top of my lap. And we push against each other as we touch. And yet we remain separate entities. How is that?

Chemists and physicists say they know the answer of course: molecular structures can be are far more powerful than what puny gravity and muscles can dare to ever be, so our interactions with structured matter effectively result in what we perceive: being separate entities made of a different kind of matter than other separate entities existing in our environment. But we're all made of the same stuff...

I'm sorry, I know this entry sucked sucked sucked. But I wasn't really expecting to retain the same idea and sentiment I had almost nine days ago. At that time I was walking sockless under a beautiful waning moon sky, staring at the stars over me and at the clouds breezing under them, wet after a happy swim at my apartament complex pool. That's how I thought about the moon and the entry's theme. Ohhhh, that's right!! I remember the intention of my entry now! It's called "Low-energy orbit"... yeah... what I tried to say was that everything seems to exist and behave in cycles. The Moon circles the Earth, its phases regularly come and go, the sun rises and sets, and just so the elemental particles that physicists have discovered also rotate and twirl around each other. And then I thought about the electrons rotating in orbits with different energy levels, and high energy levels made them go faster and more unstable. An electron with a high-energy level could eventually give off its energy by radiation and return to a low-energy orbit, or it could continue getting more energy until it was enough to break the atom's force on it, and the jumpy electron would spin off its orbit and be free to roam the rest of the universe without its original atom's influence upon it. Liberation, yeah.

But at the time I began to write this entry, I was feeling in a low-energy orbit. My cycles around my routine were getting slower, weaker, driven by remaining momentum instead of by my own initiative. I clearly remembered my orbit being much higher a couple of days before, but at that time it had lowered, and I was doing everything sluggishly. So you can see how it was reasonable for me to stop writing this entry midway - I kind of didn't really care too much about anything.

Yeah, the entry still sucked. But at least I said what I wanted to say. Now I'm in a different place, at a different time, on a different mindset, and I plan to make another entry out of that. Not too long, though, for I still have to read some papers. Bye!