Sunday, July 24, 2022

Villain fear

Why does it feel like expressing my true desire transforms me into a potential villain in her eyes?

Fear, mistrust. Difficulty to separate the identities of the desirer and the chooser. Difficulty for her, and difficulty for myself.

How can the chooser choose something independent of desire? What guides him, if not the pulls of the bridle by desire and fear?

Knowledge of consequences. Experience. Understanding that the other is a version of my self.

These factors help prevent damage, by providing constraints, by restricting. Can they also provide positive guidance?

No. They do not evoke active attraction, but rather call the self to remain still, unmoved by the unending waves and currents the world throws upon him.

And what, when this is achieved?

We will know only then.



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