Light of choice

There is a true difference between letting something go and pretending it's not there. The difference is choice. Letting something go means that we had the thing, and then we took the choice to allow it to escape our grasp. The choice is crucial. Pretending something is not there evades the choice. It looks the other way, or covers it up with a layer of excuse or of fantasy or of oblivion, forgetfulness. We may stop looking at it, we may stop noticing, realizing, then even remembering that it is there. But it is there. It remains there. The potential of choice remains, covered or obscured by the same self that was unwilling to face the newborn dilemma. And it will continue there, taking up space, obscuring that part of ourselves, cluttering up the space of possibilities that we could otherwise dance with. And we often dare not face in that direction, or take that cover off, or turn the light on, or else we'll face that dilemma we were so afraid of or unconscious of that we chose to escape it.

As one gathers many and more of these hidden dilemmas, unresolved situations, one actually becomes disempowered from dancing in one's own space because the dance floor is cluttered with signs and territories of "do not step" or "prohibited entry" or "caution - Poison", or "danger - social ostracism ahead", or "DO NOT TURN LIGHT ON".