Sunday, June 21, 2020

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Really? You're really going through with this? Another improvement program, huh? How sweet. Again to make us better?

Hey, you've seen how messed up we've been these days. No energy, no purpose, adrift and lonely,

Yeah, right, and this is gonna fix it. Like the frillion recipes and oils and mantras and healings and therapies and workshops you've gotten yourself into before.

Yeah, it's another one. And it's what we've found, why not try it ??

Fucking. waste of time. I don't see why you keep hanging your hopes on what people tell you.

Well, I don't find solutions in anything else. I'm lonely and I'm desperate and you know it.

Fucking. waste of time. My energy is not going in that direction.

Whatever. You don't have to give it energy. I can do it myself.

DUDE. You're fucking going the wrong way. Complete SURRENDER, don't you remember?

Yes, I've gone that way. My body becomes a log and my mind slimy goo. My emotions a congealed crust. I gather sweat and filth from uncare. That's not working.

Isn't that what it's about? SURRENDER? Fully. fucking. surrender.

well this girl appeared in front and with it a chance to change something. why not try it?

yeah sure. try it. It'll work just as well like the frillion times before. back to the cycle we go.

I cannot turn you off, but I can fucking hold you tight. Don't you dare oppose this fucking "healing" routine this week. We're doing it and that's it.

Sure. Yeah, go ahead. But I'll be here the whole way - you'll need to drag me past every step. See you next time you're crying your guts out from the disappointment of failure and being lost and unworthiness in life. Again.

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