anger

rage
old rage
alleviated by soothing plucking guitar music
such rage

rose from sadness
a regretful sadness
old too
they lie in deep parts of me
rose when my being
found a channel to throw my blame at
to spike sadness into blame into anger
then expression lay still
as it found itself admist a myriad social traditions and regulations
and ineptitude of
expression of anger
expression of anger
how to express anger?

fear of hurt
fear of damage
fear of unwanted attention
some
fear of out-of-context
irrelevance
it wants though
wants
WANTS
to show
this anger

and now
in an airplane
sky around me
a hundred passengers around
I know not how to express
this
THIS
is how I express
body wants more
expression
EXPRESSION
DANCE

regret at not allowing my body to express
its anger
remembrance of acceptance
attempt to equate
now and memory
acceptance of this
now

such a languid anger
perhaps made languid
through my trained repression
so languid
to sleep