Parking lot thoughts

(Date is approximate)

I sit in the car, outside the gym, at 6:05 AM, waiting for my sisters to come back. I was supposed to sleep, but I don't feel very tired. What bothers me now is anxiety. Constant anxiety of what might happen if someone comes up to my car and tries to rob me. I shouldn't be. I've heard people are killed sometimes because the cellphone isn't good enough. Or because people don't have the "required" two cellphones. I mistrust the people walking around me, their mere reflections on the car beside me, even though I am in a fairly well-enclosed parking lot. Fear, anxiety, scenes of me resisting robbery cross my mind. I imagine myself grabbing whatever weapon the person would have, pointing it back at him before he knew what happened. Or honking the horn in alarm mode and hoping they got scared enough and ran. Or at least got frightened enough for me to grab his/her weapon and use it against him. Or to suddenly open the door in an attempt to hurt him with it, and then take the advantage to hurt him or get the weapon. Or keep honking until security got to where I was. Or to talk to the robber, asking him why he was doing what he was. Asking him to consider what he was achieving, what he was contributing to... or to just open the window enough to pass the cellphone through. I don't know. I don't want anything to happen, but the familiar anxiety hits me.

Darn it.
I should be calm, tranquil. At any time, though it might happen, there should be calm.
Calm and peace will wash over me.
Calm and peace will wash over me.
Calm and peace will wash over me.
Calm and peace, wash over me.

I wonder how long until my sis'es return? It's 6:37 - another 40 minutes left, I'd say.

I'd like to take my own cup or glass to fast-food places and ask them to use it instead of the paper/plastic cup they use. I'd like to do it constantly. And to be followed on that example.

It's hard to find a silent place around here. The radio is booming on the other side of the street. Ok, myabe it's not that hard, I haven't gone around and looked for it. But indeed, I've been bombarded with radio the last few days. Mari's at home, an official radio stand right now, and they're proclaiming it's karaoke thursday. I can't HELP but listen to it, and that kinda sucks. Oh wait, if I block my ears with my fingers, I can barely hear it. Well, good. But then I can't write. Ah, dilemmas.

So today I take my sisters to their respective destinations, maybe visit the Megapaca, go back home. Maybe to Proceres, they've got power cables for Elisa's computer. Oh, breakfast at Pans with my sisters before that. Buy a cheap wireless router at the Megapaca. Go back home? Work on RW/HBI. I've done some nice changes to it.

• Asset groups in roles.xml
• Applying the display name to Status Enums dynamically from a .properties file through reflection. That was cool, and allowed SO MANY simplifications. Custom ECFilter with only the original 2 fields; label and value. Unnecessary RWProcessRowsCallback and RWLimitCallback.
• Allowing the RWResourceBundle to be reloaded. I wonder what happens if private copies of RWResourceBundle. Doesn't seem good. I'd like to take a look at it.

(Ah, the radio volume is so much better now. Maybe someone complained :)

May 5th, 2011