My first attempt of Lucid Dreaming with HemiSync was memorable. Sensational. I did, against internal expectations (but in accordance with my wishes), gradually relax my body and my mind to the point of conscious almost-sleep. I believe I may have kept my body unnaturally still, though - I maintained an unmoving straight position with my hands on my chest throughout the whole session, and only towards the end did a fairly intense ants-running sensation on my hands and arms make me allow myself to lower them towards my sides.
Throughout the exercise, I felt I was too conscious while the narrator counted and as the rain did its best to be soporiferous. I thought of causes of lucid dreaming, consequences, possibilities, too much deviation from simple focus, I kept thinking. And that same thought was unfocused, too. But eventually, without a clear boundary on when, my mind entered a state of which I don't remember all of it. I remember very short and bursty dream-like experiences, but the novelty of what I was doing, any excitement about succeeding at it only pulled me back into the conscious realm, my thoughts about the dream fell into my physical model, and the illusion dissolved into nothing. The first I remember, a drop of water, perhaps from the rain, was forming into a puddle somewhere to my front and left. Then it spread, and the water streamed down to my back, on a concrete surface. My "mind's eye" looked back to see its path, and it was simply moving back to the next concrete slab at its own pace. Then a streak of purple crossed my field of vision from right to left, and I remembered how exciting it would be to actually be having a lucid dream, and I broke the quick dream.
That might have been my clearest dream in the whole exercise. Of others I can only recall vague emotions, if I was ever able to recall anything at all from them. The BT headphones began beeping midway through the exercise too, so that didn't help. I didn't want to move to turn the BT off, so I just struggled through the rest of the exercise with occasional beeping and interruption of the rain sounds. Perhaps next time I can try it without headphones, or with a wired set.
I do believe that my body's sensations were unique - I have not felt any such (simultaneous) relaxation and awareness inside me in years, and I very much want to repeat, and enhance, the experience. Next time, I plan on allowing my body to switch its position as often as it needs to achieve utter calm.
Throughout the exercise, I felt I was too conscious while the narrator counted and as the rain did its best to be soporiferous. I thought of causes of lucid dreaming, consequences, possibilities, too much deviation from simple focus, I kept thinking. And that same thought was unfocused, too. But eventually, without a clear boundary on when, my mind entered a state of which I don't remember all of it. I remember very short and bursty dream-like experiences, but the novelty of what I was doing, any excitement about succeeding at it only pulled me back into the conscious realm, my thoughts about the dream fell into my physical model, and the illusion dissolved into nothing. The first I remember, a drop of water, perhaps from the rain, was forming into a puddle somewhere to my front and left. Then it spread, and the water streamed down to my back, on a concrete surface. My "mind's eye" looked back to see its path, and it was simply moving back to the next concrete slab at its own pace. Then a streak of purple crossed my field of vision from right to left, and I remembered how exciting it would be to actually be having a lucid dream, and I broke the quick dream.
That might have been my clearest dream in the whole exercise. Of others I can only recall vague emotions, if I was ever able to recall anything at all from them. The BT headphones began beeping midway through the exercise too, so that didn't help. I didn't want to move to turn the BT off, so I just struggled through the rest of the exercise with occasional beeping and interruption of the rain sounds. Perhaps next time I can try it without headphones, or with a wired set.
I do believe that my body's sensations were unique - I have not felt any such (simultaneous) relaxation and awareness inside me in years, and I very much want to repeat, and enhance, the experience. Next time, I plan on allowing my body to switch its position as often as it needs to achieve utter calm.
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