Friday, March 4, 2011

Pot

(Inside human processor, this happens:)


Effect is, easily distracted, can move focus from goal to goal, from thought to thought, with a perception most related to the goal. It's as if the task quantum is smaller, shorter. It more frequently asks itself what is the most important thing I should be doing, and switches tasks.

Also, controlling emotion is easier. I just very easily and strongly repressed laughter from a comment from her. It was, however, slightly harder to begin writing again after a slight distraction. It's just different (this state), like a fresh human psyche, baby-born, but it has the same habits, memories, and words as the usual self. I talk faster, I inhibit myself much less.

Thoughts are stronger, more focused, but seem to last less, and then distraction moves it too quickly, without allowing it to finish. As if the task switcher is stressed out, or high in caffeine. He hurries all tasks ahead, forcing the thoughts through my head, and the ones I wish to dismiss quickly, I do, but the ones I pay attention to, I take.

I identify myself now as a whole system filled up with identities, each of them with a role, a clock/watch, and a personality.


It all looks like the system is put on a state of alert, of Flight and Run, more adrenaline, but without the alertness, without the actual fear. Just hurry, stress, more reactive and focused.

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