Vida Impromptu

Efímera la vida,

comienza, termina.

Y aún absoluta,

fuente de experiencia,

un regalo de conciencia.

Una vívida gruta

entre un vacío de existencia.

Life Theorist

sometimes I feel like a Life theorist

who observes Life from a distance, observes it, and brews up a model or a pattern every once in a while, but who fails to experience it. Involvement contaminates the observation, doesn't it? But isn't involving oneself the only way to experience? Why do I feel there's something from my Life? What am I missing, what do I want? Is it friends? Love? Family? Or truth, independence, and wisdom? Or skills, knowledge, talent? Or adventures and excitement? Will Life always come back at me and prove me wrong whenever I find something I believe is right for me? But then again, the principle of the ever-changing world holds, right? It is foolish to expect a single ultimate goal.

Let me experience then. Let me Live!

Intellectual Knight

The knight found out,

after three years of experience,

that he went to academy looking for

others with interests alike

excitement, adventure, novelty, ideas

but he found that in academy, people are truly interested in academics, and not so much in excitement.

And more importantly,  that he actually wasn't interested in ideas alone.

That one assumption he had rarely, if ever, dared to question.

And when an assumption is broken, what is done?

Dispel the concepts built upon that assumption.

Being intelligent does not oblige one to mingle with other intelligent people, nor to prove oneself. The same rules apply - Life is a sandbox. Be what you will.

I came looking to be recognized for my intellectual potential. I learned two things. First, my intellect is not as supreme as I once thought. Second, I was following a path given to me, assuming I was what others thought me to be: a potential scientific prodigy, a logically guided and bound creature. But I am what I am, and not what I think I am.